Elle’s Diary: When Being Superwoman Isn’t Enough

o there’s always a bump in the road…Or two, or three, or maybe just a big ass boulder that we can’t seem to get around. This is where the depressing Facebook posts come from. When we reach this bump in the road that seems impossible to get out of. This is usually when you think you have done everything right and maybe have been rewarded in some kind of way, in my case a promotion, and then you are hit with bad news. Maybe it’s not even bad news maybe it’s just an added stress that takes you right back to square one after you worked so hard to get to square two. Get it? My point being that it never fails that something is always going to come up and as put together as we seem, it sucks always having to be Superwoman.

I’ve reached my depressing Facebook moment recently with having zero luck finding a place of my own. I live in San Diego, California and if you are not familiar with this place I will sum it up for you: It is an expensive whore…Good to look at, you can have a lot of fun but it will cost you. This is just minor but I think these situations seem bigger because we work so hard, three jobs to be exact, and we get stuck in a stand still. I gave up my love of shopping for 30 days to cut costs and save only to have a bill replace that. I got a promotion at two jobs and then I owed taxes so that pay raise just evened out with bills. You might be a mother of three working hard to make ends meet or a full time student working part time to make a living, no situation is the same but we all struggle at one point. Maybe even a lot.

So what do we do? I don’t know about you but I don’t even have time to cry when I’m stressed because that takes up time that I could be working to pay another bill. We could all live the bare minimum but honestly I’d rather live this one life. Or we could start looking at what we already have. I do have a current place with my family that I’m staying at and even though it’s not my ideal situation, it’s something. I do have a guy who is extremely supportive and has shown me what genuine love is. I do have my health…well most of it, I can’t be held responsible for my sanity when PMS strikes. I don’t have to sit around and stare at my bills or sit and think about what’s due. Instead I’m going to keep looking for places, keep paying off bills and since I get an hour long lunch break I’m going to walk up the street and get my toes done because I want to.

What do you do when being Superwoman isn’t enough. Just be you. Hey even Superman took a break as Clark Kent once in a while.

“Today I choose life. Every morning when I wake up I can choose joy, happiness, negativity, pain… To feel the freedom that comes from being able to continue to make mistakes and choices – today I choose to feel life, not to deny my humanity but embrace it.” –Kevyn Aucoin


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